Trying to get focused again

With school ending and all the real-life obligations associate with that, I haven't had much time to be creative. But my mind doesn't stop.


A recent reunion with high school friends has inspired me to re-visit the screenplay I wrote for Script Frenzy '08. I think I'd like to attempt it in novel form. I thought perhaps the story was too thin, too cheesy to bring up again, but not now. After an amazing weekend with these old friends, I learned I was not alone in a lot of the feelings I had and still have about my high school years. And frankly, I heard a lot of great material that could be fictionalized, elaborated and made into something unique.

I'm one of those people who not only remembers High School, I'm probably a bit stuck. After High School came a lot of great things- a cross-country relocation,great friends, a wonderful husband (right away, almost), etc. But I also experienced a huge failure and a lot of depression. In some ways this left me stuck. I didn't take off and soar into adulthood- I stumbled around aimlessly and felt tremendously ineffective. Gone were the exciting, productive and pretty days of high school. I felt fat, directionless and un-talented.

Maybe I'll turn all of that into some believable writing.

I always think of Anne of Green Gables....or Anne of Avonlea...where Anne is trying to write this epic romance, but in the end writes what she knows. This would be a perfect example! I know this particular environment I grew up in (which is Conservative Christianity), and I have stepped out of it enough now to be able to observe it objectively, I believe.

This is what is taking up my brain space now. If I can focus on it.

I'm still crafting and re-crafting Blood Freckles- trying to get it to a point where I can do re-write #3. I may back-burner it, though, as I cannot seem to get good angle on it.

Then there's the matter of the Fantasy I want to write. I feel like I'm definitely in over my head with it. I know the characters, I know the basic (very basic) premise, I just can't figure out how to make it cohesive. And the factual info? There re elements of this that are actually Sci-Fi, and I do not feel qualified to write Sci-Fi in anyway. So, this will take time.

I'm also trying to paint like mad right now, which is another part of my brain.

Summer is coming...next week I'll be school-free and hopefully my brain will come alive and my fingers will be flying on this very keyboard.